this battle

to and for
back and forth
it continues
this battle that internal
this battle that is eternal

b.c.

It is a crossroad we have all gotten to at a particular point in our lives. Some have been there more frequently than other while some are yet to get there(or so they claim). It is at this crossroad that we are forced to make a decision that may map the rest of our lives(or just the immediate future, but for dramatics' sake lets say the rest of your life). We are often put at war with ourselves when we have to make this choice-do what feels good or do what is right.
Here is a example, you like someone a lot. So much so that...okay moving on...but you know this person is not good for you meaning you can only get hurt. You have heard the rumours, you have seen how they treat you, but still... So now you are at the crossroad, do you pursue this person because you like them or do you do the logical thing and walk away. Hence the battle begins. Emotion versus logic. Emotion tells you that you should stick there. Try your best and don't believe what people say. Emotions go as far as rationalising all the misdeeds this person performed or accuse others of jealousy and/or malice. Emotions make you want to do what feels good here and now.
Logic on the other hand forces you to face the cold hard facts. This person is not worth you time if they treat you like less than human. Logic forces you to look and recognise the misdeeds as a fact of life. That if they misbehave now they will not change for anything because no one really changes. Logic forces you to make the 'right' choice based on cold hard facts. So the battle ensures. The intensity of this battle depends on each individual and each individual case scenario. People who are predominantly emotional will quickly ignore all logic because they believe in happy endings while those logical people will subdue their emotion and follow 'the evidence' to reach their decisions. So what happens to those of us like myself stuck right in the middle like myself? Those who are as emotional as we are logical...those whose battles are so intense that nothing seems to be the right decision...how do we eventually come to a conclusion? How do we suppress one so that the other can take control? And so the battle rages on...

NB: A friend of mine came up with a solution where she suggest that we should choose what feels good and prolong the feeling of pleasure for as long as possible so that when reality sets in, it makes it worth the trouble. Hmmm...

Disclaimer: I am not suggesting that emotional decisions are wrong